Hmmm, its been a long time that i blog.

somethings i wish to share with my family, but i think better not.

Thats why I'm here for.

17days later, will be our 1year anniversary.

Until now, i still cannot fully trust my boyfriend...

Why?!

Yesterday, we went shopping as per normal.

Beginning was fine, i bought alot of clothes, we joke around.

Went to Boyfriend favourite place Borders.

Just when i walk towards him, i saw him sms-ing ppl.

I'm always sensitive about this kind of things and of course, I took his phone and see who's the one that sms him.

And the person came out to be his ex-girlfriend.

She is the 1 that my Boyfriend love and spend the most in the past.

I just don't feel good when i saw her sms-ing my boyfriend.

I know I'm selfish.

Wen Kang also sms me most of the time, but boyfriend its okie about it.

Am i the one that got problem? Or my boyfriend is too open?

Or maybe i'm too over.

Sometimes i wish my boyfriend can give me his full attention, knows how i feel.

But i know, 他不是神。

When my boyfriend is trying to explain to me.

He told me that "you know that she is getting married real soon!"

I don't know why but i feel that he sounds kind of sad for me.

Maybe he is just trying to tell me nothing to worry about cause she is getting married.

But, its just the way he sounds like.

I'm so so scared of getting hurt.

I don't like the way i'm now...

Being this way i feel very 痛苦。

What am i supposed to do.

No one will know how i feel.....