hmmm

Today is Wednesday..

today i meet Xuan 8.30am...
we reach bedok at around 9.35am then madeline come up the bus 24...
hmmmm
how to start leh ?
today i feel very sad and like dunno who to do to myself...
i feel that... xuan dun really like mi...
i just got that kind of feeling...
i'm very scared !
i'm very scared that i'll be like boon theng...
i dun wan to be like her !
really dun wan to be like her...
i always feel left out
i also dunno why !
although madeline say no matter wat happen they all never hate mi and left mi out..
BUT !
i really dunno what to do to myself to be better !
i already lost my family care
but i really wish i can have my really best friend to care about mi !
although i got hubby care
but that is very different !
i dun wish to be like that !
am i really very bad ?
i dun like being left out !
really dun like !
i already can't smile like before le...
i dun wish to leave the group !
i really love being with them...
i really enjoy !
but
i think....
one day
they will really kick mi out....
hmmmmm
after writing all this things...
i feel much more better!

*Ting*